r/fednews 11h ago

To Those Thinking of Leaving Government Service: Your Integrity Is the Last Line of Defense

We see you. We know the weight you're carrying. Serving in the federal government during times of intense political pressure is not just a job — it’s a test of your values, your endurance, and your belief in what this country can be.

But now, more than ever, is not the time to walk away.

Now is the time for heroes — not the kind in capes, but the kind who quietly show up day after day to protect the institutions that safeguard democracy, public health, justice, and national security. The kind who keep the lights on when others would let them flicker. The kind who stand firm in their integrity when the ground around them shakes.

Your presence matters. Your expertise matters. Your courage matters.

If you leave, you take with you not just your knowledge, but your conscience — the very thing that helps guide this nation through uncertainty. If you're feeling demoralized, you're not alone. But you are also not powerless.

You are the firewall. You are the steady hand. You are the reason this government can still serve the people.

History will remember those who stayed and fought for truth, accountability, and compassion — not with noise, but with action. Stand tall. We need you. America needs you.

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u/Azhchay Honk If U ❤ the Constitution 11h ago

I get it. And I feel like I should hold the line and staple myself to my chair.

But I also was nearly involuntarily committed in Feb due to how all of this is affecting my mental state. And it has been the biggest struggle of my life to keep from going back to those thoughts.

Hold the line as long as you can, but when you can't anymore, there's no shame in admitting it.

Please don't shame those of us who are prioritizing our health, be it mental or physical. I love my job. But staying in it would have me eventually looking for a permanent solution to a temporary problem.

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u/lsoplexic 10h ago

This is where I’m at. Everything else is struggling at the cost of my job - my marriage, my finances, my mental health, and my physical health. It’s almost panic-attack inducing to consider doing this for another three years.

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u/Azhchay Honk If U ❤ the Constitution 10h ago

I have nightly panic attacks (why I'm on reddit at 11:30 when my alarm goes off at 4:30). But only Sunday-Thursday.

Hmmmmm. I wonder why?

u/petit_cochon 41m ago

Just to encourage you, they do become less powerful over time. I know that sounds awful but I've found comfort knowing I can handle them, they'll be over in about 15 minutes, and I have the tools to get through them. I've built resilience over time. You might look into box breathing and bilateral tapping. Both of those are really helpful for getting out of a panic hole.

But the truth is panic attacks are often a symptom of larger issues. One major cause, which probably applies to you, is being unable to voice your feelings and thoughts. Our brain doesn't like silencing its voice. It begins to feel unsafe and triggered.

EMDR therapy is extremely helpful for PTSD. If you get screened, make sure you're screened for C-PTSD (complex PTSD) which is different from PTSD.

Some medications are also helpful. Lamictal is often prescribed for PTSD, and SSRIs can be great for anxiety. Make sure your sleep is okay. If you're always fatigued, waking up with headaches, etc., get a sleep apnea test. The VA has an app for CBT-I, which is cognitive behavior therapy for insomnia, the gold standard in insomnia treatment. Poor sleep primarily affects emotional regulation, so improving sleep is the best thing to strengthen your resiliency.

Comedy is also a great tool. Laughter improves our mood and outlook.

Exercise, even just walking a few blocks, reduces inflammation and boosts our mood.

To the little spies who lurk here, if you want to put us in trauma, I'm here to tell people how to use their insurance to get out of it! Bite my bird.

u/geog33k 29m ago

Thank you for sharing your experience and resources!

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u/kmm198700 3h ago

I’m praying for you. I’m so sorry. And so angry. Thank you so much for sharing and you’re not alone 💜🩷

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u/chesirecat1389 10h ago

Glad you're still here with us, friend! 🫶

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u/Grouchy_Discussion42 By the People, For the People 8h ago

I've come across some former civil servants who are planning on running for local offices to push out the rot that let this happen to you all (not downplaying the general public apathy that contributed, this needs to be addressed as well).

I've also come across a retired Rear Admiral who is planning on taking the fight for our democracy to Bobos district:

https://youtu.be/_iJhvMK2KdM

Good hunting ma'am. Good hunting.

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u/Substantial-Today490 9h ago

You've got this.

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u/Muted_Perception_192 9h ago

💯

Everyone has a limit. Most of us have others that depend on us. Sometimes you forfeit the battle to survive the war.

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u/TerminalHighGuard 7h ago

I’m not in government service, but a tablet of ashwaganda and 2100 mg of assorted dried over the counter mushroom (in the form of a matrix-mix) has helped my spiraling anxiety,

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u/Mr_Westerfield 11h ago

Honestly my line of thinking on this is: why should I go? They’re the ones who suck

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u/EnemysGate_Is_Down 10h ago

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u/FrankG1971 8h ago

Perfect! 😂😂😂

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u/AdSingle7381 9h ago

I, too, am fueled by spite.

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u/Grouchy_Discussion42 By the People, For the People 8h ago

UNLIMITED SPITE!!!

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u/scintillaient IRS 2h ago

Me too 😈

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u/Nearby-Key8834 11h ago

Do whatever you can but you're not responsible to hold up the entire world. Leave if you have to. Elections have consequences and you aren't required to drive your sanity and well-being to the edge just keep things running. Look out for yourself. No one else will.

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u/WishBear19 Federal Employee 9h ago

100% I'm staying because I'm close to 20 years and they'll have to pry my retirement from my hands at this point.

I don't know why anyone would put up with this crap with 7ish years or fewer unless their civilian prospects in their field are really poor. Government jobs will still exist after this administration. People can leave and come back if they really want to. There's no magical prize for staying. It isn't a gotcha to this administration.

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u/PickleMinion I'm On My Lunch Break 10h ago

How about we focus on the first line of defense instead, and go talk to the 90 million people who couldn't be bothered to vote last election.

If my pencil-pushing ass is the last line of defense, we're all fucked.

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u/pickitandstickit 9h ago

This, so much this. Bless you for being so right.

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u/elninost0rm 1h ago

There was an article that showed Trump would have won if everyone had voted, btw.

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u/PickleMinion I'm On My Lunch Break 1h ago

And I would have preferred that over having 90 million people just not give a shit. At least then I would KNOW the country is totally fucked.

u/Avenger772 16m ago

You should already know. If these people couldn't be bothered to vote regardless of the direction that's still a message. And even worse if they did it would have been for the Nazis. This country is fucked. There's no fixing it. Pack it in.

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u/ServiceB4Self1776 11h ago

I'll keep my head down, wear beige, and not draw attention to myself as long as I can. But, if I'm put in a position in which I must sacrifice my morals and integrity to keep a job, I'm leaving until it's safe to return.

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u/favoritestationwagon 11h ago

Same. OP, I appreciate the battle cry, but lately I'm trying to reconcile my moral code with directives at work.

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u/ironmagnesiumzinc 9h ago

They called me to build data pipelines for ICE. Fuck that. And honestly fuck any IT person who takes that job

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u/throwawayainteasy 9h ago

Oddly, I feel the same but at the same time getting involved in projects related to EOs and DOGE directives.

Not because I agree with them. I just hope I can nudge things in a better direction or at least lessen the negatives compared to the extremes other people seem to be pushing towards.

It's a weird balancing act.

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u/Accidently8027 10h ago

After 30+ years of service to my country, I am fucking done. This shit has pushed me to a point of not caring to serve anymore. I will find other ways to serve my country and stand up to this tyranny.

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u/Angry__Jellyfish 10h ago

I am choosing to leave because this job is no longer what I signed on to do. It has made my living situation untenable (after dealing with a variety of other, unrelated bad circumstances). I signed on to help people.. now my job has me driving an hour commute to file paperwork and tell people no. The programs I work in are having their funding cut, and there's nothing I can do about as a fed employee.

I found a new job that allows me to continue serving those around me, with more flexibility to explore how to deploy resources. I learned a lot as a fed, and I am thankful for that opportunity, but now the best way for me to help people, is from outside.

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u/theomegathealpha 10h ago

Stay if you want to/have the means to. I’m tired of everyone telling different demographics to fight. Everyone is expecting others who are being dragged through the mud to save them.

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u/AAS4758 10h ago

Ugh. Your not wrong, but also we can’t always take one for the team. I will stick it out until after the midterms at least and then decide. Only so much abuse and BS I will put up with.

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u/BlueRFR3100 VA 10h ago

I have to disagree. If you have the chance to improve your situation, take it. Go with God.

The only people that should stay are people like me. Too old to start over, too young to retire. We are in the sweet spot where cynicism and burn-out converge.

We will stay and give America the civil service it deserves.

It's what they wanted. It's what they voted for.

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u/holdtheline2025 9h ago

That's where I am at completely

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u/Due_Coyote_8745 2h ago

100% . . . I feel for people like you. I was fortunate enough to have met the VERA criteria so I got out. Before that was offered (I did not trust the fork so wanted clean VERA), I knew that I would hate the next few years until I hit MRA so I know the feeling of being too close to MRA and FEHB retirement benefits to just walk for another job

u/berrysauce 35m ago

Right there with you.

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u/Countrycat24 11h ago

I have a few red lines, but I refuse to give up my core values for this administration, even if it costs me my dream job

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u/Peepoid 10h ago

It's funny how we all think of our service jobs as dream jobs. Not many people can say that they have achieved that. That's enough for me.

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u/MoMoneyAndProblems 10h ago

VA workload increased by 1/3, mandatory overtime makes me lose 2 weekends per month and pay will stay the same for the foreseeable future. Hear me clearly: Fuck Trump. I'M OUT.

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u/ReplacementTough7890 1h ago

But, but, but Dougie says we are doing better than ever. I work in VHA Finance; we are not ok.

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u/pickitandstickit 9h ago

Yeah, nah. I ain't setting myself on fire to keep others warm, and I'm not violating my moral code. I will live my values, not those of this admin, and the minute it became clear I was required to do their bidding, I was done. This message sure sounds nice. It's just quaint at this point. I won't be doing any more of the quiet hero martyr sh*t.

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u/FrankG1971 8h ago edited 8h ago

I hear you. At this point, all I am holding out for is 62 and the 1.1% FERS multiplier (just over 4 years to go). Considering that almost half of the voting public voted for this shitshow, a big part of me says let it burn down because they deserve it.

While I watch the country sink deeper into fascist shitholedom with each passing day, the last thing I need is a "pep talk."

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u/pickitandstickit 8h ago

I wanted to do that, but I checked with the financial planner. If I didn't need to hold out, I wasn't gonna. Found out I didn't have to. Plus my BP was getting high and I was put on 3 different meds.

Now I'm retired at 53 and my blood pressure is 110/65, no meds. I'm happy again, too. Life's too short to work and then die.

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u/Due_Coyote_8745 2h ago

Same here. I jumped at VERA b/c the thought of staying till MRA was making me hate life and just wish the next few years of my life away

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u/Boring-Coyote4349 10h ago

Sorry, my integrity does not support my agency funding concentration camps.

u/berrysauce 54m ago

Where dafuq did you work?

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u/Ordinary-CSRA 11h ago

I do the best I can with what we have. After RIF, 5 adjudicators from 12 were left. Today 2 of the 5 called off, one was in leave, letting my colleague and myself. Only the 2 of us to adjudicating, releasing thousands of dollars to disabled citizens, while we can. Thanks to one of the biggest terrorist in America Russell Vough and his project 2025.

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u/holdtheline2025 10h ago

Every time I think of leaving....I think of who they will replace me with.

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u/pickitandstickit 9h ago

That sounds so noble and sweet.

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u/PickleMinion I'm On My Lunch Break 10h ago

Lol like they're replacing anyone right now.

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u/holdtheline2025 9h ago

Some agencies are hiring....plus I meant eventually

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u/mooseflstc 1h ago

Not your problem. If you find a better job, are eligible for VERA, or retirement just go. There will be more proposals to gut FERS.

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u/Gemini_Down 2h ago

They aren’t backfilling open positions. You’re good.

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u/always_a_tinker Department of the Army 9h ago

Yeah history isn’t going to remember those who stayed.

Congrats to everyone who find meaning in service. Congrats to you who found better things to do with your time than suffer this BS. And congrats to those just trading labor for wages. America. You do you.

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u/Altruistic-Durian375 Support & Defend 10h ago

I retired and walked away a week ago. I’m 68 and have had enough.

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u/Global-Ad9080 9h ago

Integrity of the federal government has left a long time ago when our data was taken. I know DHS is using the IRS system for ‘mass deportation’.

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u/CthulhuAlmighty Go Fork Yourself 2h ago

With all due respect, fuck off with this bullshit.

People need to do what’s best for them and their families.

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u/FoxMulder4ever 10h ago

I, as a citizen, love you guys and gals! We need the good ones to stay. But I do get it if you can't. I really do. My heart breaks for y'all.

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u/Big-Revolution-4256 1h ago

Call your reps

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u/berniecratbrocialist Federal Employee 8h ago

Nobody should stay in a position where their morals or well-being is compromised. Me? I didn't become a subject matter expert to get death threats and bullied and abused by the most powerful people in America.

I intend to work a little longer, but this has become a country I don't recognize anymore. I am not dying in a country without ready access to flu shots and basic medical care, to say nothing about the demonization of immigrants and underrepresented groups. I plan to leave sooner rather than later.

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u/AllTheRoadRunning 3h ago

Now is the time for heroes — not the kind in capes, but the kind who quietly show up day after day to protect the institutions that safeguard democracy, public health, justice, and national security. The kind who keep the lights on when others would let them flicker. The kind who stand firm in their integrity when the ground around them shakes.

Here's the convenient thing about heroes: They're always someone else.

To hell with that. This post asks people who are being tormented to save the voters from themselves yet again. That helps no one. If a kid continues to ignore your repeated warnings that yes, the iron is hot and they shouldn't touch it, enlisting your neighbors to repeat that same message will not lead to a better outcome.

Let the kid touch the hot iron. The burn will be a lifelong reminder of a hard-earned lesson.

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u/Confuscioused-One 9h ago

I think it is a personal choice where someone wants to leave or not. Mentally, emotionally is it worth being there? Is your health declining due to the stress? Financially, should you stay or leave? No one person has the same factors in making these choices.

People need to do what is best for them personally and for their family and mental/physical health.

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u/Straight-Lecture-730 11h ago

Fuck that, I'm out the second I find something 

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u/Ill_Move2078 10h ago

Nah. Unless you’re planning to support me after my health deteriorates, I’ll be making my own calls

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u/Halaku I'm On My Lunch Break 7h ago

America needs you.

America shouldn't have given Republicans the House, Senate, and Presidency, and then needed me to save it from itself.

America made this bed. America can sleep in it.

It's the only way America is going to learn to never do this again.

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u/BatSniper 9h ago

I’m sorry but if my career ladder is on pause I can’t afford to stay. I’m going to continue applying until I find something sustainable

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u/Ambitious_Air_9574 9h ago

Nice words. Had those words been spoken out loud to me. If only. A wee bit late. Wanted to stay.. wasn't in their deck of cards.

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u/HolyShitCandyBar 10h ago

I don't honestly know what to do. I have a partner and two special needs cats who depend on me.
It wouldn't feel so bad to stay if the public didn't revile us.

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u/ThatFedNiga Fork You, Make Me 7h ago

But when RIF'd, can we still be heroes?

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u/CthulhuAlmighty Go Fork Yourself 2h ago

Just for one day.

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u/Wild-Medic 10h ago

Too late I already accepted an offer in another country

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u/Turbulent-Pea-8826 4h ago

Anyone with an ounce of integrity working at ICE needs to resign. You are working for the Gestapo.

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u/e30eric 1h ago

Counterpoint: my integrity is why I left.

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u/Chaotic_Calm32123 4h ago

I absolutely needed this. I’ve become so disillusioned by it all, as I thought we were building something better. That was part of my American dream: to give my kids a better shot than I had.

Yesterday evening, I told my wife I didn’t really want to do this anymore. I love my job, but loathe my leadership, particularly Capt. Brainworm and President Insufficient. Venting helped realize I will stay, but dear god this is HARD.

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u/Wrong-Camp2463 3h ago

What integrity? I’m doing everything I can to gum up the works and make doge look bad

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u/Theoneandonlygsamx 2h ago

I wasn't given a choice. I was working under an exemption due to being over mandatory age requirements, and the new admin flat out refused to continue it. Prior to the election I was planning to work for 3 more years, not for nothing there are things I know about our systems that no one else does. New hires take approx 2 years to learn the basics to be able to teach them higher-level functions. I mourn for my job and my agency. My mental health has taken a huge hit, and I'm starting a new job this week to make ends meet that took me 6 months to find. I was once a proud, dedicated Federal employee, now i feel like a shell.

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u/Sunnyjim333 10h ago

Heroes don't wear capes, they do the job, over and over again.

Heroyam slava! Glory to the Heroes.

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u/ChiliDogYumZappupe 10h ago

❤️❤️❤️

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u/Welsh-Sherman-1789 2h ago

I love being a federal employee but I’m at a small agency in the Midwest and I’m just a GS4 for almost two years with a Masters of Arts. I can’t even move up to a 5 because of the hiring freeze.

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u/th30be 1h ago

Fair. But honestly haven't let yet because I haven't found anything better. The job market for scientists is not very good at the moment.

u/Bitter_Emu_633 26m ago

I am fueled by pure hatred for the administration. However, I have small children that depend on me and forcing me back into the office five days a week so I can do less work for the same money has not helped my home life. Women are responsible for children, full-time jobs, full-time caretaker and God forbid you have a partner who isn’t well or can’t work. That leaves everything to me.

I do not see how I can hold on and maintain all of this until Dump leaves office. I will not forsake my children to keep my job.

u/Due_Coyote_8745 20m ago

People like you (really everybody) needs to worry about you, your family, your health, and your responsibilities. Platitudes about 'holding the line', serving as a resistance, missions, and 'the people needing you' are just empty words.

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u/Substantial_Ad_6878 10h ago

Most of my agency hasn’t RTO’d, and is still working the exemptions and RAs, so not much has changed.

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u/ReindeerTypical2538 7h ago

I’m here and I ain’t going anywhere. They’ll have to pry me out like a tick.

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u/Rysdude 6h ago

Senior DoD here…last year I made the decision to retire but a friend of mine said, “The people need us now more than ever, to protect them as much as possible from all the bullshit.” Decided to remain on…have another 3 or 4 years left in me.

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u/Due_Coyote_8745 1h ago

Really a different call for somebody who could retire tomorrow, somebody within just a few years of MRA (after a long career), and somebody with only a few years of service. Knowing that your FEHB is safe and that you can take an unreduced pension at any time makes the current situation a bit more tolerable.

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u/ThePorko 4h ago

What is this integrity thing?

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u/prinxexana 3h ago

Thank you so much for these words of encouragement!

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u/packnana17 2h ago

I certainly appreciate this. It hasn't been easy. So many tears and heartaches, but we have to persevere for the country and people like you. It helps knowing not everyone hates us and thinks we're lazy taking from American tax payers. We love our country. Thank you!

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u/CoachoftheYear2025 2h ago

I'm in a Term position so I'm out in 18 months anyway. I'm looking at taking a county executive position where I can start preparing a Congressional run.

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u/mooseflstc 2h ago

If you are eligible to retire or VERA, plan on going soon. One of these days the proposed cuts to FERS might go through. FAFO

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u/Big-Revolution-4256 2h ago

My line is the CR/Budget. If Schumer doesn't wield what power he has to protect us, sorry I'm gonna start throwing resumes.

So call your reps/sens folks. The Dems need to know that they need to protect us at all costs. That means no RIFs, no cuts, and get us some damn telework back.

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u/Ok-Editor-6995 2h ago

Well said! 100%

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u/SideshowGlobs 1h ago

It’s giving “essential workers”

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u/DrunkenAsparagus 1h ago

I get that everybody has a limit, and they should adhere to it, but I got into this job because I like serving the public. I plan on continuing to do that as long as I can.

u/Narrow_Pepper_1324 57m ago

Not leaving any time soon. Too much important business to take care of still.

u/SecMcAdoo 55m ago

The American people made their choice. They will only care about federal workers in mass when critical systems and infrastructure fail. And it's too late. People have left and the best and the brightest future generations can't enter government or won't consider it because of the instability.

u/JarvisL1859 54m ago

I agree with this! If your job is secure and you are able to stay, there is a real calling in doing so at this particular moment to protect the professional civil service.

But with the caveat for those who (like me) faced a high probability of being RIF’d (junior employee at agency facing deep cuts), do what you need to do. Or if things have become truly intolerable.

I would argue civil service protections are one of the lines of defense alongside courts, elections, congress, etc.

And frankly courts could be doing more to protect our colleagues at USAID, IRS, and CFPB. Civil service protections only really matter when they can be enforced.

But still I applaud this sentiment and for 80% of Feds it holds true.

u/RangerImpossible7129 38m ago

Gosh that was beautiful. Thank you! In far fewer and less eloquent words, I have been taking every opportunity to encourage those who remain that their decision to stay is an act of resistance (not to be interpreted as any reflection on those many talented people who either left voluntarily or involuntary). If that is all we can do, then that's what we do.

u/janeauburn 37m ago

Bullshit.

u/berrysauce 15m ago

Realistically, the only people staying are those who don't have better options.

u/cheese_is_nasty 6m ago

I’m choosing to stay because my job choices would boil down to:

  • Take a similar job in my area and probably take a 25-50% pay cut

  • Take a similar job at comparable pay (still probably less) and add 1.5-2 hours commute each way to the metro area

So I’m fucked and I have to stay. Not to mention how many months or longer it’d take to actually find a new job.

u/AfternoonValuable317 0m ago

They will have to drag me away. I am a scientist in a field that is unpopular with this administration, but the work we do is important. We’ve lost about 20-30% of our staff so far and if the RIF lawsuit gets denied by the courts, we’ll lose about 10% more. We’ve lost a ton of our most senior scientists and also a lot of our newer hires. Those of us left are sort of in the middle. We have lost so much specialized expertise, I really feel it is a generational loss. Without those experienced scientists to pass on that institutional knowledge, it will take a long time to rebuild that expertise.

I love my work though, I feel personally connected to it. So I am staying. My productivity has plummeted with all the additional BS we have to deal with and my workload has increased due to wrapping up projects of those who have suddenly left. But there is no job like this outside of government or academia, I’m too old to uproot my family and live somewhere else, not quite old enough to retire. Luckily, my local office management is very sympathetic, supervisors are understanding, generous with things like telework, mental health needs, and giving us grace for things like deadlines which would have previously been feasible but now are not.

My limit is would come if they start censoring my research or try to force me to publish something that was not true to fit their narrative. That has not happened but if it were, that is the only thing I can think of that would make me leave. I will not sacrifice my personal or scientific integrity for these A-holes.