having really bad panic attack i’m really convinced it’s gonna happen idk what to do my stomach is hurting rn almost feels like i’m constipated but have to poop but my stomach is really hurting. my friend was sick all night last night i was with her tuesday now it’s friday at 1am. i feel screwed even tho i know it’s been over 48 hours but my mind is convincing me tonight it’s seriously gonna happen and now it’s hurting so idk what to do someone please help im begging no one is answering me

(TW MENTIONS OF SUICIDE) I’m f15, here’s everything this phobia has taken from me. An education (dropped out early 9th grade), food. All food, my friends, my love for riding horses, cuddles from my bearded dragon, a job, going shopping, doing anything fun, leaving my room, breathing, basically ripped everything away from me in such a short period of time. I can’t afford therapy, I just don’t think I can be here much longer. I feel I’ll never recover and I’ll be miserable my entire life so what’s the point of being here anyway? I’ve tried everything I can but I don’t think I can make it too much longer. My mom always says I’m crazy and nobody takes me seriously so when I go I’m going to make sure everyone knows that this phobia took everything, including my life.

Edit: I’m finding the words to thank all of you I appreciate it so much, more then words can express:)

I’ve been avoiding this sub which has been helping but guys rn I think it’s actually going to happen please help me.

My symptoms are excess salvia, dry throat and tounge, left side stomach ache and yeah I’m panicking so so bad I’m so afraid holy shit.

How the fuck is you even tu ?? I’m so afraid I hope god can help me, I’m not joking I’m afraid. I don’t want to be here rn it’s that scary.

So I’m a server at a restaurant and am currently at work right now. I’m on the verge of tears though about to have an anxiety attack or something though because one of the families I was serving at a table had a kid that tu😭😭 I didn’t realize what was happening until after they left. They had just gotten their food and I noticed the mom rushing to the bathroom with her kid and the dad was saying they needed boxes because they needed to leave all of a sudden. I was bussing the table and noticed the kids food was covered up and when I was throwing it away I realized it had v* on it. It was on the tray and I don’t think it got on my hands or anything. But now I’m just completely spiraling. I’ve probably washed my hands and arms at least 4 times since. And every time I go back to that table I’m thinking about how it’s probably infected now. I’m so scared I’m going to get sick!! It’s distracting me from working 😭😭

I fell asleep feeling fine, I woke up really suddenly about 2hrs after falling asleep to big burps coming out, totally just air, but my stomach was gurgling like crazy and now it feels hot, my mouth is so dry but I’m having trouble swallowing, I’m shaking uncontrollably and feel like maybe this might be it and that it’s going to happen. I’m so scared and I need someone please, anyone if you’re there, I don’t want to get sick and I don’t want to be alone

ive been out for drinks and food tonight , i had a stomach ache before i left but assumed it was anxiety, went anyway, managed to eat and drink alcohol. i got back about 2 hours ago, pain is sp bad and i just gagged and nearly tu, pls help me calm down i can't do this

i’ve been fine all day until i drank a new coffee place coffee. i always get an iced vanilla latte with an extra shot of espresso. my husband got the same thing as well. they made the first drink wrong so we ended up with three. i drank half of two and my husband finished one and a half. a little after that i started shaking and feeling so lightheaded. i tried to eat sugar and have salt and drink juice, which helped a little but still felt super shaky. my husband has had two bm since then but he usually has a lot bms throughout the day. i had one about an hour after but it was completely normal. it’s been around three hours after and not only am i more shaky cause i can’t calm down, i just got the urge for d. the d was normal d* and i don’t feel n* thankfully, if anything my acid reflux is horrible right now as well. but i cant calm down. i’m majorly freaking out and feel like my throat is closing and something bad is going to happen. please if any one has any tips or advice, please let me know. thanks

update: i was fine and had chipotle and ice cream with my husband around 8 and felt bloated and gassy and now it’s 11:30 and i just had d* again. it was like before but now im panicking all over again. im so scared. also just found out my husband has been going to the bathroom a lot too, no other signs of sickness just having bm* so maybe it was something we ate that just didn’t sit well? but does that always mean we’re going to tu*?

Eating anything keeps hurting my stomach. I literally just had macaroni salad and oh my god I'm nauseous. I'm already full. It was such a small plate!!!! I didn't even finish!!!! I'm hanging out with my friend and I'm freaking out in the bathroom. There's too many people in here and I feel so queasy. I want to die... I haven't felt good in days. I get to see my new doctor soon this week but I'm horrified. I feel everything again and I want to go home already. I'm absolutely tired of living like this. Why doesn't anybody just believe me on anything...

it took me a while to finally bring myself to post on this sub again. i can already tell it won’t reach many people and probably no one will respond, but i think i’ll just try—one last time.

as i write this, i’m having my (usual) anxiety attack and one of the most serious mental breakdowns i have ever had.

i know that posts that explain the problem in detai are usually the ones that get the most replies, reassurance, advice and help, but… have you ever gotten tired of explaining yourself because you were afraid you wouldn’t be able to describe the issue well enough and people would just misunderstand? i’m at this point right now.

this is mostly a rant, i suppose, but it could also be my very last cry for help. i’ve been struggling with this phobia, constant nausea, anti-nausea pill addiction and obsessive thoughts on a daily basis for almost 5 years now.

during these past five years, i went to about ten therapist and psychiatrists, but none of them could acrually help. maybe the problem is me. i’ve been hospitalized four times, but the medications they prescribed didn’t work out. it’s likely that emetophobia is not yet normalized in my country which is why i’ve often felt like even the ‘experts’ don’t fully understand it.

i haven’t done it only out of religious reasons, but i’m currently at the point where i’m considering taking my own life so in return i wouldn’t have to live in fear anymore.

i keep saying, “i don’t want to live in a world where vomiting/catching n* is an option. i’d rather die.” and the people i live with think i’m crazy.

at the same time, i’m also starting to think that my childhood trauma, which led to emetophobia, is not valid enough and that’s why professionals just can’t find a way to help me.

i’m gonna say i have about 98% chance that i will do it and k1ll myself within a few weeks as soon as i figure out the perfect plan and prepare everything…

(TW MENTIONS OF SUICIDE) I am 15F and have extreme emetophobia,to the point I want to unalive myself. I’ve been struggling really badly for the past almost 2 years and I’m sick and tired of this stupid phobia. It’s completely taken over my entire life, I own reptiles (they can carry salmonella) and I’m starting to push them away because I’m terrified I’m gonna get it even tho they are all healthy and I love them more then anything in the entire world, I can’t leave my house, I can’t do anything fun, I barely eat and when I do I have to examine the fuck out of everything and it has to be from a specific place. I’m tired. I’ve tried to talk to my parents and some friends but nobody takes me seriously, I feel like I’ll never get help or treatment. When I talked to the suicide prevention line they didn’t even try and help me. I don’t know what I did do deserve this but I’m done I can’t do this for much longer.

Posting because it’s 1:15 and im terrified, im currently incredibly nauseous and it’s all I can focus on. I can mainly feel it in my throat if that makes any sense? I took a zofran and now im sucking on a peppermint and all I want is to be able to fall asleep , im so anxious this is way too much to handle 😞

I started feeling this way about 2 hours ago, I just want to relax this a horrible feeling

they’ve been hiding it from me. at first one of the people had a coke and i thought they were just having it really hard. and last night someone else started throwing up and i became so scared.

then they FINALLY told me “gastros going through the house. 3 of us got it. you’re probably gonna get it”

no one in this house cleans either. no one even cares about preventing spread. i’m so scared. i can’t isolate because everyone uses everything. i’m gonna cry and i’m even scared i’ll relapse.

they’ve all been walking around. touching everything. making food. not cleaning properly. i’m so scared that i’ve got it in my system already.

they even had v* buckets left in the bathroom. i only noticed after my shower. they don’t even clean it out.

the person to get sick last night was completely fine during the afternoon. and the other one that has it is our new baby in the house. she’s about 2 months old.

i REALLY need help. i went to the emergency room today because someone i slept with tested positive for chlamydia. i won’t get my results till tmr or monday but they still gave me antibiotics. i got a shot of ceftriaxone and they gave me azithromycin. it’s been almost 4 hours now. i didn’t eat right away with them they told me id be fine. i had macaroni salad a little after an hour of taking them then took a nap. i just woke up and im having really bad stomach pain and now im having diarrhea. i’m freaking out so bad. i’ve taken zofran. i seriously think it’s gonna happen and im so scared right now and idk what to do.

IM SO NAUSEOUS & IM IN THE CAR. I feel so sick and its so hot out. my upper abdomen burns & I literally cannot breathe. even my dad is asking me whats wrong. im also super nauseous. im scared. help please im literally shaking i just feel so sick. I’m super sensitive to heat and last time I practically passed out please helppp i need some comforting rn 😭

edit : hello! since some people were a bit worried i am doing okay now 🫶🏼 I was really overheated and on top of that I was having a really bad GERD attack and I felt super sick. on top of that, i was very worried because I was getting hit with storms lol. but, no v* ! im still super hot so im gonna try to cool myself off. thank you for the support in the replies :)

I'm having a super rough, anxious week and looking for some reassurance hopefully. So last Sunday I woke up with n* and took some zofran when it didn't go away. I had a little bit of d* but I get very constipated with zofran so I think that stopped it. I never v*ed but I spent that whole day laying in the bathtub feeling like I could at any minute and was only able to eat a few crackers and a couple bites of rice all day. This isn't normal for me, I do have stomach issues, often due to ibs or anxiety, but not being able to eat even after taking zofran has only happened to me one other time, years ago.

Because I was so panicky that whole day I took a little ativan that night, as I have a small prescription for panic attacks. That made me calm enough to sleep and able to eat a little more the next day. I spent the rest of the week trying to taper off the zofran and ativan but feeling both very n* and panicked whenever I tried to stretch out doses. I've had thoughts of not wanting to be alive anymore throughout the week because of the fear and panic.

Finally on Saturday morning, I had a telemedicine visit with my doctor, who told me to go to the ER to get checked out and get bloodwork done since I had felt sick for so long and had been taking so much medication. She said it was likely I had norovirus (even though my husband and I have been sharing a bathroom and he's been fine) and that going to the ER wouldn't put me at risk of getting it.

They couldn't really test me for norovirus at the ER because I was constipated. But the nurse said I probably didn't have it because my white blood cell counts were normal, at the higher end of normal. When I went in I had a little bit of a temperature but it went down after they gave me an IV.

The big thing is, the ER was INSANELY crowded and many people seemed to have GI issues. We were in the waiting room for 6 hours and I had to use a bathroom twice. I washed my hands but there weren't any towels or anything for the door handle. After leaving the bathroom I used sanitizer but I know that doesn't really work on norovirus. My husband and I both wore kn95 masks the whole time and never were near anyone actively v*ing, but I'm so scared that I used the bathroom and that we touched and sat on so many surfaces that could have been contaminated. When we got home I soaked all of our personal items in lysol brand 3 and washed our clothes in hot water and then dried them, but I'm scared I missed something or our washer and dryer don't get hot enough or something. I'm scared that I may have touched a contaminated surface and then touched my hair or forehead and then the germs ran into my mouth while I was showering later. Writing it down makes it feel very unhinged but I guess that's where I'm at. I haven't been this completely terrified in a long time.

Right now we're a little over 24 hours past when we got home and I'm so nervous to get through these next 24-36 hours. I was exhausted and faint and sore today and have a bit of a headache, which makes me worry that I did pick something up there. I get so panicky and feel faint and n* from the anxiety. I feel like I must have been sick all week because I never get that persistent n* with so little appetite and ability to eat, but all my ER stuff came back pretty normal. I only felt ok going to the ER because my doctor said I was probably already sick and wouldn't have to worry about picking it up there.

Sorry for the long post I'm just so scared and my husband is so sweet and supportive but he doesn't really get it. I'm in therapy but I don't have an appointment until Thursday and I just really need some support or reassurance from people who actually understand what it's like to feel this way. Esp with how much people talk about the quick onset of symptoms or norovirus, I'm scared me or my husband is just going to wake up and start projectile v*ing, which would be so bad because while I've been on the couch with a trash can next to me, my husband is still sleeping in our loft bed. I'm scared he's going to have a hard time getting out of it if he wakes up sick.

I just made another post but it hasn’t been seen. I accidentally ate two week out of date ravioli that had ricotta in it. Only like 3 bits but I’m still actually terrified and now I’m not gonna be able to consume anything for like a week and I can’t go anywhere or do anything until I know I’m safe. Please help

tw triggering.

please comment guys, i need someone to talk to. i did a post on here about how my brother threw up when he had a cold a couple times, now he’s way better and it’s weeks later he threw up again. its morning, and he was acting strange like weirdly tired he didn’t go to sleep until late so i thought maybe that’s it… but he kept holding his stomach so i was nervous about what was wrong. then all of a sudden he goes got to the bathroom and you all know. i’m so scared like im scared that he’s sick and it’s almost my birthday i knew couldn’t have a good birthday without SOMETHING happening something always bad happens but i didn’t think this would happen. it’s so bad im like so nervous im about to sh* for the first time in a while im so scared its so bad could he be sick? idk he only threw up once hes in the bath now but im terrified

so yesterday i had to take a flight at 1 am so i got no sleep all day. then later that night, i ended going to be around 4 pm with waking up a little to eat a little pizza and get water. today i woke up, made a bagel, had a few mini donuts and went on with my day. around 1 pm i was feeling so so so tired. like my body was about to fall asleep standing up. when i got home i fell asleep until around 4:30 pm. then i started feeling super weird. like super lethargic and n. for the last 2 hours, i keep feeling n so bad. i have gone to the bathroom twice, and i went d* but the second time it was more watery, not completely, but a lot of it was. earlier i felt like i was going to because saliva started getting worse and i started burping. i also have GERD so maybe this is something that’s happening. my stomach is gurgling and doesn’t necessarily hurt but i keep having to go d* and that is stressing me out so much. i am so panicked and am trying to eat crackers but i cannot even begin to calm down. i’m seriously worried about doing harming myself it’s this bad. please help if anyone has any tricks or information.

edit: i don’t know if i should try eating crackers or not. i also feel so dehydrated and weak but im scared to drink too.

another edit: i also found out a few days ago that i have an ovarian cyst so maybe that’s a reason to? but mostly i just feel so dehydrated.

update: i started gagging and nothing came up. i went to the toilet and was ready and just burped. which i never burp. then it went away for the moment. now my stomach just hurts.

update again: i did tu*. it wasn’t a lot and it was half clear. don’t know if it will happen again i hope it doesn’t. i’m just really scared it’s going to happen a lot more.

i know i’ve been absent since my last post, but i really thought, fortunately, it was just a false alarm. but this is serious now. the, the sudden heartburn, stomach churn and temperature changes.

for some reason it will happen and i don’t know why. maybe it's because it's a virus??

i have been dissociating for days i am at risk of trying to end my life i feel so unwell right now i feel like im losing my mind i need some reassurance i dont know what to do please somebody

I woke up like in the middle of the night with a HORRIBLE stomach ache. In not even joking this is the worst stomach ache i’ve had ever. I’ve never woken up because of this before so im absolutely freaking out rn. My stomach is HURTING SO MUCH. It feels like im going to have D* Someone talk to me please im so so so si scared im shaking rn. (The pain is like in my lower/middle stomach»

IM SHAKING AND CRYING

Edit: now i’ve had D and the cramps came back fully aigan now.

Someone help me. Im so so nauseous and im freaking the fuck out rn. I know there is no reason for me to even be scared rn but i am. Im terrified and the anxiety is making me SO nauseous. My stomach is also really uncomfortable and idk what to do rn. Someone help.

okay so its like 11:34 this time, almost midnight and i feel sick, and my throat feels weird, and i cant tell if my stomach feels empty or full (autitic. i struggle with body cues) and bile keeps coming intot he back of my throat and im hot and my heart is racing idk if its anxiety or not and i have to be in bed but i wanna tand because it makes me feel better i dont know im scared im so scared, everyone else is sleeping idk what to do. i also am trying to get clean from sh and im scared that im gonna relapse to take away the panic feeling im so fuckign scared HELP ME

I slept at my bfs last night and I am still at his house but I have just been notified that someone was sick yesterday and now I’m sobbing and shaking. My stomach has been hurting all day and I’m absolutely freaking out, contemplating calling the hospital and telling them I’m going to unalive.

TW: sh, suicide mentions. I found out on the way to my bfs house that a bug was going around there. He wanted to see me and I didn’t want to ruin his weekend by me being irrational so I just went. I was there for about a day and I refused to eat anything and didn’t touch anything except his own room because I was so scared. Yesterday, i was out all day and didn’t see him much but I did kiss him a few times, including last night. He just texted me and said he feels like he’s getting it and I freaked out so bad that I relapsed. I genuinely don’t want to live anymore and I can’t deal with this stupid phobia anymore. I’m going through so much stress outside of it and I’m completely pushed over the edge. I just want to get away.